Jackie with UC

Hi. I was diagnosed with UC in December 2012 after a colonoscopy because of my severe bleeding. My symptoms started a year before I saw a doctor...I was embarrased and terrified of what might be wrong annnd I didnt want a doctor looking in my butt : ( It all started with mucus and then light blood and then one day I thought I had direah but it was all blood. I almost fainted at the sight. I tried to heal myself through drastic measures. I did an all water fast for 30 days, zero food or juices. This turned out to be a HORRIBLE idea and no one should do this in my opinion. Finally I got so weak and delerious that my parents forced me to go to the doctor. Im thankful that they did. I needed a blood transfusion and stayed in the hospital for 5 days. When I have to go to the bathroom its urgent, like 1 minute warning urgent. I've had accidents more than 10 times in the past 2 months because of not having enough time to get to a bathroom. That really takes a toll on my self esteem and mental state.