I,m 57 yrs old.never had any problems in the bath room.then last November/December/bammmm.i,m living in the bath room.bad diarrhea.very bad.blood.it a mess.i,m so weak.can,t work.have no hekp from work.or insurance. I can’t leave the house alot. Landed in the hosp.first they said I HAVE DIVER TIC. GAVE ME MEDES FOR THAT…it got worse.stayed home 3 weeks.sent me back to hospital,did new colon check.now they say i have u/c..put me on steroids.now waiting a month. and they are going to do a cat/scan April 2nd. i don,t really know what depression is..butt i think i going their.the doctors are all ready talking surgery if things get worse..how could all this happen in 3 to 4 months.i,m not going to let them cut me..the doctors have made mistakes.and myself and wife have to call them all the time about stuff we have read.and sure enough they change the medications or add something.i,m lost.just freaking out about April 2nd cat/scan..got to go bath room i s calling…
I’m too new at this,but it’s messing up my entire life.
I,m a Florida boy..love my boat,Harley,and getting out with the family. Since December I’m living in hell. Have not done any of that.well do spend time at home with the family,which is great.but i,m afraid to go to allot of places.so any help would be great.i,v lost like 20 lbs i a short time..that’s all i can say now.i can,t write 300 words or more yet….help help.help.i do worry allot and stress.always have it seams.read that can cause flare ups..i hate that word.can not believe how much toilet paper we buy now..had to start going to the dollar store.or watch out for sales at CVS or Wallgreens.can’t talk to many of my friends..that’s because of me not wanting to explain the story.the few that know are very cool about it.but i have not meet someone that has u/c.so my with has been my go to person..just got married in march of 2011.she is so great.its her that got on the comp.and found Adams site.she is like my doctor.but she knows I don’t look to be a bother to people.so she goes easy on me..i now tell her the truth what i see in the toilet.and the pain all this is putting me thru..they give me meds to call me down.helps a bit..i have not had a drink since december..the other night we got shit faced on vodka.and 7up..best i felt in 3 months to be honest.for sure can,t do that all the time..but i just needed it..didn’t go to the bath room the whole night..maybe vodka is the secret.just have to find the rite mixer..maybe adam knows..cause next day,,back in bath room..also is hard to sleep..man i sound like a wack job don,t i.it just so blows me away how all this started 3 to 4 months ago..what the hell did i do.i miss my boat.and for sure my harley so much.the other night when i got shit faced..i went out and just sat in my boat .and then sat on my harley a bit.man i do sound like i,m really having a hard time.i am..the weather is so nice here.i live in Tampa Bay.and i can,t get out much,or at all to enjoy it..i know people have allot worse problems.i,m not looking for people to feel sorry for me..i,v always been so active and upbeat..when people see me now .they know something is not rite..but i just try to hurry and get away.getting allot of calls from friends that are checking on me.because someone that saw me told them i look like crap..i do tell them whats up.but always change the conversation to their lives.hard to tell some about shitting blood all the time..i hope i have 300 words.i dying here.wow just checked.have 464 words.guess i really need to talk.thanks ..fred…sorry for the spelling
written by Fred
submitted in the Colitis Venting Area