not sure what to say… I’m 33 and currently in the military. Have a very active lifestyle that’s appears to be coming to a screeching halt!! I was diagnosed about 4 years ago but never told what it was.. Basically ignored it until recently.. Now I’m lost and feel like my life’s about to change in a huge way. Im from Utah but have only spent 2 of the last 14 years in the states. Although Hawaii is a state it’s not the mainland. I collect baseball cards haha.. I have a felling that will be getting more popular for me in the coming years haha. I can see that my party life will be at a screeching halt……
Currently I have sever pain in my stomach and after eating can not be more than 2 minutes away from a restroom. Nothing solid comes out and there is often signs of blood.. yuck!!!
I can’t really say how its changed my life. I’m just now coming to grips with it. But I know there are alot of changes in the future. I’m actually scared of this!! haha.. I went to medical the other day and for the first time i had a young kid tell me i had to drop pants and bend over. I just about punched him in the face!!! Lets just say he got the point that i was not about to do that so easily. Now I’m here without family and lost!!
What can i expect?
How can i make it better?
What can i do to make thigs feel more normal?
Are meds the way to go?
Shoudl I quit smoking as I planned to do? I need to know everything!!! haha. I hope to find someone or more people to talk to, to help come to grip with this and take the actions i should have taken a long time ago….. I have a very active social life, enjoy haveing a few drinks.. Sometimes more. And the foods.. I don’t know that i will be able to give alot of them up. I just went shopping! haha.
But i can say that i am scared now.
More scared than i have been about anything. Not ready to change my lifestyle due to something i know nothing about. Who can i turn to? How can i make people understand i don’t want to leave the house if i have eaten becuse i fear being away from the bathroom? I’m lost and not ready for this. haha.. why me? and its a silly question to ask but i feel my current lifestyle may be to blame. I guess the biggest fear is not having someone to talk to who understands…. I’m really concerned about being depressed. I feel that it has already set in and i don’t want to be negative at all!!!
Where I’d like to be in 1 year:
in one year.. i just want to be back the shapoe i was in when i thought things were normal and was goign on with my day. enjoying the occasional drink and not feelign this way.. though i know that wont be. but hoep to be better off and symptom free!!!
all i know is asacol.. what else is there???? tell me!! haha
written by Chris
submitted in the colitis venting area