My name is Nichole. I am 23 years old. I am a toddler teacher at a private school. I am going to college and studying elementary education, I want to be a kindergarten teacher. My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 years.
Some more about me:
I live in the US and am from Pa. I love to hang out with my friends, take pictures, watch movies and laugh.
I am currently experiencing the worst pain i’ve felt in my life. My stomach cramps have become unbearable and pretty much have me on the floor in pain. I am having blood and mucus in my stool…well what stool? It’s basically all blood and mucus. I am in and out of the bathroom about 20+ times a day. It is really starting to take a toll on me mentally. I feel like i will never be my normal self again and honestly that is depressing. I constantly have to cancel plans because I just am exhausted from the pain and in and out of the bathroom.
UC is Ruining My Life, I Want to Feel Normal Again
I’ve had Ulcerative Colitis for 2 years…first time I went to the GI for this I was told I had hemorrhoids. 2 years later I go to another GI, have a colonoscopy done to find out I have a mild case of UC. I was frightened because my mother had colon cancer, and my uncle has had colon cancer. I am pretty much convinced I WILL have colon cancer at some point in my life.
UC has made my life very difficult..I can’t go anywhere without having to run to the bathroom. I work full time and I’m always tired from constant trips to the bathroom. It just seems like it’s never going to end and I will never be my normal self again. I forget what it feels like to feel “normal”. Right after I eat a meal, you can find me in the bathroom. After all the bathroom trips and pain you can find me falling asleep on the toilet because i am so tired….I’m 23 years old and my friends want to go out and do all this fun stuff and I always have to cancel or not go because I’m nervous about having a flare up. I feel like for the past 2 years i’ve had this terrible flare up that hasn’t gone away or gotten better at all. It’s sad I spend most of my time in the bathroom. I love the support and understanding I get from my boyfriend and family. I just cant wait for the day i feel normal and happy again. This disease has really taken a negative toll on me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I’d love to know what other UC’ers do and think to stay positive when everything seems to be so crappy (no pun intended) Feel free to let me know!
I am currently on LIALDA. I take 2 tablets a day. I’ve been on this medication for a week and have not seen an improvement, I am actually feeling a lot more wore down and tired.
written by Nikole
submitted in the colitis venting area